Sometimes we cannot find it because we are looking for it

While reading Conversations with God, I came across a passage that quietly touched something deep within me. It didn’t give me more answers— instead, it softened me into stillness.

I began to realise something simple, yet profound: when I am searching for something, I am already assuming that I don’t have it.

And that assumption alone moves me away from the very state I long for.

Searching Comes From a Place of Lack

We are so used to searching— searching for peace, for love, for unity, for awakening, for clarity. But when I am “searching,” am I not also telling myself: “I am not there yet”? “I am not enough yet”? “I have not arrived”? And so, the more I try, the further it seems to slip away.

The Paradox of Meditation

Just like meditation, there was a moment when a sense of separation dissolved, and everything felt like one. Yet in the next meditation, a thought appeared: “I want to reach that state again.” In that very moment, I knew—I couldn’t. Because the desire to arrive had already taken me out of it. I was no longer simply being; I had become someone seeking for an experience. This is when I began to understand: It cannot be accessed through effort, technique, or will.

It arises only by BEING.

Returning to “Already Being”

Perhaps true transformation is not about how to gain more, but about returning to a state of already having. Not pretending. Not convincing. But simply stopping the inner denial. I no longer ask, “When will I become?” and instead rest in

“Right now, I already am.”